They said, 在家靠家人 ; 出外靠朋友 . I say 靠人不如靠自己. when you are at the downfall of your life, who is there to help? who is willing to help? all i heard are all excuses. forget it. not even family is there to help. yes, dad will and definitely will help. but, he already helped alot by clearing my credit bills. mum?! hahaa! dont even think of approaching her. all she knows is to say NO to everything. especially money. she is just too thrift to the extend of becoming stingy. even when im in need of money to clear my bills, dont be surprised, she will rather see you die. and she will say "you deserve it." oh well, im pretty used to it already.
yes, im at the downside of my life right now. nothing is going on a smooth track. i am just so afraid that i cant afford to pay the loans by november. i aint gonna approach daddy anymore. wondering why would i take a loan? no money? nope :) i took this loan for my mum because she needs money for her purposes and in other words, i owed her because she claimed that i didnt give her any money eversince i stepped into the society. oh wells, all the birthday treats, bags, beauty necesscities etc, i bought for her are all with my hard earned money. she is totally unaware of the loan till now. i will get killed if she gets to know.
Money, what a sensitive object on earth. not even your closest people are willing to bring you up when you're down. i am more like an outsider. i did everything on my own. i may seem that i have a happy and well-to-do family, i may seem to have anything i want, all these that i owned, are all achieved by my own hardwork. sigh, 家家有本难念的经. sometimes i wonder, am i a living thing in this family? . . .
