Bestfriend ?

' It hurts badly . ' then what about me ? dont i hurt badly too ? not only badly , but it's damn fucking badly . dumb of me to read your post which i shouldnt do so . i haven been going to your site for very long . and what you said in your post really pierced me deep hard . i thought things are going a lil better than before . and heaven knows , it's all going on my own will . infact , things are going worst than usual . i really wondered , what am i to you actually ? a bestfriend ? or just a someone whom you will find when you are bored ? have you ever thought of such questions ? i doubt so . can i not just only be your ' bestfriend ' ? now i finally realised , everything is only on one side . i am the dumb-est idiot ever .