somehow ; im wondering, what am i doing this? & why am i doing this? somehow i wished i could disappear or vanished in the thin air. arghh , i really dont know whats running through my mind now. problems after problems. one came after another. it was so difficult to solve until i would think it every now and then , everyday. i guess im really not prepared for all these shits that happened around me now. i dont wish to get involved in all these shits seriously. but why am i always the one that gets involved in all these unnecessary shits. i need my independence back. i need time for myself. please leave me alone people.