HAPPY 44TH SINGAPORE !
random call . thanks for that , after so many fucking days you kept me waiting . thus , objective of the call wasnt what i expect . you wouldnt know how much i was anticipating for your contact for the past few days , after you told me you werent in the right mood that day . and you went gone for good without any reasons/explainations again . & kept me in suspense AGAIN . all these are nonsense . i digged my own grave . maybe is just all one-sided or prolly you dont even bother at all . i tried to cherish . to salvage . to do anything just to be like in the past . but i was insignificantly treated . im really tired . stop all your talks that will give me a second thought . i create troubles for myself . how stupid can i be ? im so gonna keep my tears up .
i felt that im not living for myself , but my parents . they screwed up my passion [dance] . & i gotta do what they want me to do for my future . i know they did all these are for my own sake . i appreciate . but , why cant i pursue things that i like ? they'll just object no matter what . why must i follow the steps on how others succeed ? i lived for their own good . i lost aims & goals in my life now .
YAYS ! midnight movie with Liling and Trina last night ! 'orphan' was what we caught . & work @ level 3 today . watched jay chou's concert , ndp 09' and singapore idol while working . haha ! & time flies after show by show . hoho . work @ Ion tmr ! ((: going supper @ buangkok now ! ciaos !
