so tired . tired of thinking such issue . it has been a long long time since it happened to me . & it happened at this time . which is a total wrong time . i'm just a weirdo as what Valerie always described . & i totally agreed now . i dont know how i am feeling now . it's just not right . gotta go for a run now . maybe it helps (hopefully)

For once , i took you for granted .

i dont appreciate what you've done .

you are always there ,

whereva i am ,

& look after me .

yet , i even hate you to the core .

& now , when i finally realised everything ,

everything is too late .