Firstly , i LOVE all my frens . who had been accompanying me during these horrible days . im lazy to list the names out . u noe who u ppl are . infact theres only 2 . (:


im really a lousy fren . i cant help them much when they are in trouble . i feel so so so damn bad la . all i can do is jus keep repeating the same words again and again to them . console & advices thats all ! and i felt that its not enough for a damn bloody best fren . i noe u ppl treat me as a true fren . if nt u all wont be telling me all ur stuffs and so on . im seriously touched . thanks for trusting me . yeps , besties will always be besties , best fren will always be best fren . ((:


cant really sleep well these days , & i totally looked like a dead person idling around . was addicted to this online game . viwawa . introduced by my Melissa xiao jie . and only the Mahjong game attracts me . its a bloody good game to kill my rotting time at home . & of coz i only play when my frens are ard . hahas .


damn !! gonna start work REAL soon . zz` totally spoil my holiday mood . and i only left 2 pathetic days before i get to the hell work . argh !!!!!!!!


went cycling today with Valerie and Edwin at east coast in the afternoon . cool breeze blowing across my face . woo ~ headed back to serangoon for awhile before going to ah ma house . cabbed down to ah ma house for her birthday celebration . cousins !! ((:
alrights , turning in real soon . gotta wake up damn bloody early tmr .

confession doesnt seem to work on u . i felt really really really pain . my mood was destroyed all becoz of u . u let me harbour false hope and stuffs & now ............ do u noe the feeling of want to cry but i cant cry it out ?! it really sucks .

yesterday - brought my little precious to the doctor with my daddy and sis-in-law . and shes getting betta now . bumped on to Rachel . Jasmine . Edmund . Lin Lao Shi @ compass point . headed home after that with daddy's car , and off i went to meet that birthday boy for dinner . went all the way to newton for his crayfish meal which costs me a BIG BOMB ! luckily he noes how to appreciate it . if not i'll slap him for sure . alight at hougang and went to somewhere near to do some stupid things . lols . and he accompany me home after that in the middle of the night . walking along this eerie path . hahas . and poor birthday boy got to hail a cab home with the midnight charge ! LOLS .

today - nth much . went to Julin's house for dinner . & accompay baby Jayden back to yishun . and home aftermath with aunty's car (:

i seriously dont know what to do ...

was out with Ivonn bestie yesterday . went to town 1st and then bugis . had pepper lunch for dinner & walked ard to digest . headed home after that . met that stupid Justin had an overnight chat with him again . i dunno why we had so much things to talk . but seriously , we've lots of things to talk . regardless of wat topic . ain't we cool ?! lols


met up with HuiMin & Val just now @ amk hub for lunch and movie . Step Up 2 . erms ~ its not really a nice show to me . i prefer Step Up 1 . it is seriously alot more betta . ratings 2/5 . while the other of my 2 girls think that its damn nice . lols . different people have different preference . walked around the mall to occupy the time before the show . and headed home aftermath . baby ashley was down with cough and fever . get well soon my precious !!

another day had passed . everything is still the same ...........

nothing much to describe for the past few days . was just simply hanging around with the same ppl .
& thanks to Justin for the morning call yesterday . that was like damn early 9+ in da morning . and great i was feeling so damn sleepy . and guess wat i went back to my lala land until he called me the second time . quickly got up and prepare . hailed a cab down to meet him @ amk hub . luckily i was only late for a few mins . lols . breakfast and stuffs , and headed down to town to buy his thing . damn fickle minded la he . cant made up his mind . went to the same shop for like more than 3 times . and in the end i choose for him . hahas ! hope my taste will be pleasent la ! took a short nap at his place . coz im freaking tired and home aftermath before he went to meet his gf . took a hot bathe and rest for awhile and off i went to meet up with my crazzies @ 11 . HuiMin . Valerie & Partner . Anna . Darren . to changi village for supper . DIM SUM !! hahas . Tonny . HuiFen . Aunty came and joined us later on . eat . craps and stuffs and they sent me home 1st @ around 1+ (:



coincidentally , last night , i went back to the place where we 1st went out together . this place was my happiest & longest time spent with you . my mind was filled with all the flashbacks . it really hurts when you left without a word . perhaps you dun even care about how i feel . and you dun treat this seriously . but things were already happened . you should already noe how i feel & wat im thiniking . you are not a heartless person i noe . but why are u doing this ? making me so upset with all these unnecessary problems ? all i need is only an explaination and a firm verdict . is this so hard for u ? do u even think at all ? im not an irritating freak that will freak u out everyday . once things are clear , i'll do wat im supposed to do ..........

i was home alone for the past 4 days . mama & daddy went overseas to celebrate their wedding anniversary . soo sweet right ?! hahas . bro and family were not around when im at home . so its equals to none is at home .


alrights . last sunday , i mentioned that i went to celebrate Valerie's belated birthday with my crazzies , Peishan bestie came & stayed over at my house after her work . girls talk !! titbits and pudding & stuffs late at night . YO FATS ! & im glad that Peishan bestie is back with her loved one . all thanks to me . hahas . and we turned in as early as 4+ in the morning (:


Mon - was out with my dearest schoolmates . Eileen & Fiona . great time spending the whole entire day with them . went to quite a number of places . travelled by walking . thats my fav ! hahas . & finally we managed to get some rest around marina square . cam -whoring !!

tues - oh wells , im falling sick again . zZ ! this time round is terribly sick . hate to be sick la !! was being disturbed by Peihui bestie early in da morning , 9am . haha !! she came over to my house to accompany me & also steal some stuffs from me . gossips . breakfast ect till evening and she went off . had a short nap before heading to Ivonn bestie's house . went to somewhere near our area for dinner and back to her house . as usual la . as wat girls do when they get together (: headed home at abt 1+am and sleep deprived after medication . & mama bought me lots of stuffs during her trip !! woohoo !! LOVESS !!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEI LUN !! (:

thank you so so so much besties . Melissa & Justin for these days . accompanying me , giving me comments , analytics , suggestions , scoldings , all the consoles and lots more . i seriously appreciate all that . i dunno wat would i become without u all . u ppl nv fail to cheer me up when im down . LOVES !!

& i yet to hear anything from you after that day . are you so that heartless ? i wonder did u ever think how i feel ? cant u see ?! or u dun even care ?! tears `

its been a long time since i had breakfast together with my Family . it feels so nice although im tired with my heavy eyelids . had this breakfast last sunday . went to changi village to have Tim Sum . woo !! my FAV !! and then home after that . (:

Fri - quite busy recently , went to watch Jean's dance performance @ temasek poly with Peishan bestie . with all those hip hop . reggae . modern . street jazz . b-boying etc !! Jean u really ROCK !! nice performance !! Congrats (: had supper with Peishan bestie at somewhere near and we headed home with bus 27 .

Sat - met up with my dearest Melissa before performance . went down to vivo for dinner . thanks my dearest Melissa , for listening ears (: thanks so much ! <3 after that , went down to Victoria Concert Hall to watch Huay Kuan's dance performance . lots of memories flashed back . this was my very 1st time watching performance there . this feeling was rather good and no good . the stage reminds me of those dance performances that i've performed b4 :( saw lots of huay kuan's members . glad that they still rmb me (: yeps !! Chinese Dance is still the best la !! and then all went home together (:

Sun - went out with my crazzies . Daphne . Hui Min . Val . headed down to town to celebrate Val's belated birthday @ Sakura . yummy !! and shopped ard after that . they are too crazy till i dunno how to decribe them . especially Hui Min . and home aftermath (:

im struggling the whole day today . i really dunno wat to do . can u tell me what are all these means ? i dun wan things to end up with no explaination . this will make me feel that im a fucking ..... after everything . argh !! Peishan & Pei hui bestie had given me lots of suggestions . and that Justin ass too .. i really appreciate all the advices and suggestions seriously . thanks so much . u ppl are always around with me when im in trouble . thanks (:

seriously , 有时候我怀念以前的我 . i wonder . can i be wat i used to be in the past ? where are all my super brave character ?! where are all my guts ?! there's no ' Scared ' this word in my dictionary last time . what's happening to me now ?! im running away from situations . im avoiding !! im really confused right now . tears`

went out for dinner with Justin just now . i was kenna conned by him . always cheat me . ass !! luckily , he brought me to this place for dinner . which is a not bad place . a good place to chill . if not i really will slap him . lols . home after that (:

sleep deprived . zZ `

YES !! im finally done with all those sucky exam papers !! & im FREE NOW !!
hahas !! i can go out like nobody's business already man !! woo !

today's paper was alright . and the previous one was quite okie . there are questions that can do and cannot do of coz .. well , stop all these man , darn irriating !
yeps ~ programmes are of coz coming up this weekend ! hahas . with my besties and dancers !!

this is really outta my surprise . i merely spent 2 entire days with u , despite im having exams the next day . we are getting to know each other very well already . all thanks to the 2 days (: thanks for driving me thru and fro . seriously thanks for everything (: but my instincts again .... telling me something .. zZ

INSUFFICIENT SLEEP !!

hi eye bags & dark eye rings .


it feels great to have a good fren back . at least there's someone to hear u out . all the naggings . im glad that u still share ur problems with me . although i didnt help much . thanks for still treating me as ur good fren . (:


grudges , hatred etc . please keep it aside . its time to think mature . unknowingly , i was being hated by a few ppl . even the close ones . perhaps there are some misunderstandings & miscommunications previously . well , i hoped all these are over . forgive & forget . we are still related after all . as for those who dun even noe why u hate me or just following the crowd , its time to wake up . im not asking for compromissary , but i think u should have ur own thinking and stands . u are no longer a kid . as for those who really hates me & i hate u too , lets remains the same . maybe someday we could become frens too . (:


HAPPY BIRTHDAY VALERIE !! (:


i guessed im gonna down with fever soon . flu really irritates me damn much .
wasted 2 days . its time for SERIOUS REVISION .

was supposed to accompany Ivonn bestie to the polyclinic yesterday , but ended up im late so she went herself . met her after her consultation . went to town do some window spree . and coffee bean at taka was our last venue . guess wat ?! i did my revision there . at least 1 question okie ?! & its a revised question , coz im redo-ing all the 4 papers . hahas !! while Ivonn bestie do her own stuffs . planning her schedule and stuffs . & we are PLANNING AHEAD !! right Ivonn ?! (:


out of my surprise , and its almost a year , u came back at last . its beyond my expectation seriously . im really glad that u actually treasure our frenship after so long . with lots of stupid quarrels and stuffs . i nv thot that i could ever talked to u again . coz u really made me hate u alot . i noe u wanted to salvage our frenship , if not u wouldnt have come back to me . u noe , its like i understand why la okie . as what u told me , i understand u the best , noe u the most . after our super long chat last night , i felt that we are still like as good . and we will never run of topic to talk ! after a year and we are still like that . maybe we are really meant to be good frens after all . i accept ur apology dude . coz all things were already happened a year before , so no point broading over it again . we are frens of course ! but to be back as we used to be , it takes time la . i need time to tidy and build up the trust in u again . im sorry , but i noe u understand . since u said u noe me the best . so i assumed u understand . dun worry too much . let nature takes its course and everything will be fine (:

3/3 - HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY STANLY !! haha ~ i noe im always the BEST right ?! as usual , i wont go missing , dun worry , i'll always be around for u . BUDS !! (:

its da same everyday . out with Pei Hui bestie to do revision . facing all the accounting questions . its totally irritatin !! hopefully i can get out of this sickening school smoothly .

GONNA DO REVISION AGAIN LATER . zZ `

I NEED A PROPER JOB RIGHT AFTER I GRADUATE !!
can anyone intro some to me ?!


the chance of getting into poly is real slim . becoz of my current gpa , it is totally too sucky . thats why i need a proper job badly . money is never enough for me . i dunno why too . i guess all of u out there too . am i right ? jobs approached , jobs declined is what i've been doing besides doing revision for my upcoming exams .


thurs - a no school day for me . met up with Pei Hui bestie at compass point's library to do revision for our coming exams . been ages since i last met her . as crappy as ever . did some catch ups while doing revision papers . 5hrs or studying and finally our stomachs are calling us . grabbed some finger food and our all time favourite sushi . & then i headed down to vivo city with Pei Shan bestie for a window shopping while Pei Hui bestie had something on which made her cant join us . hmm ~ went home with the very last bus departed from harbourfront .


fri - another no sch day for me . coz i got no pe already . met up with Adrian & Agnes at Adrian's house before we proceed to our event show with Adrian's car . worked with the both of them for a few hours and Adrian sent me home . Thanks ! love working with them la . coz its jus so fun ! haha ! Ivonn bestie came and stayed over at my house . purpose was to do her homework . hahas . but we ended up eating . magazines . talks and sleep . coz she said my room is too cosy . haha . but of coz she managed to complete her work the next day ! haha !!


today - met up with Jesslyn and her boyfen to go to the Career & Education Fair at suntec . after so much consultation regarding all the private schools . i had a clearer and better idea of wats going on but im confused on wat's my next plan after ite . well , concentrate on my exams 1st . went seperate ways after that and headed down to pasir ris beach with my family to meet the other relatives and cousins from my dad's side . was rather bored there . and went home in awhile .