please clear my doubts ..

i've got tonnes and tonnes of doubts in you .

im always hoping to know you more everytime .

but yet , i felt that you choose to stay put .

its hard for me to carry on .

Patience ?

oh , what is Patience ?

there's no Patience in my dictionary either .

i dont know how to define it in Your terms .

but still , i'll persevere ..

because it is You ~

sometimes i really wonder , what are u thinking ? what are you doing ?

does my name come across your mind when you need someone ?

or does my name come across your mind whenever are lonely ? or whenever you are bored ?

tell you what , I Do .

im wondering how much do you know about me .

i know nothing about you seriously .

im trying but yet .. i felt that we are just an aquaintance .

you are a person that are full of question marks .

& im willing to take up the challenge .

so are you willing to move on ?

initiative seems hard for u these days .

& i have to do the job .

are you so that nothing to talk ?

i always find no topic for us .

perhaps we already chatted quite alot the last time .

or perhaps im just too chatty that you dislike ?

sometimes this really makes me feel that im a freaking annoying person .

so am i ? i hope im not .

you said you are not a good guy .

but to me , you are alright !

you said my attitude is good towards you ,

and i denied .

coz i really dont have good attitude towards a relationship .

im an idiot in relationship , im lousy at it , im just a lousy girl .

i told myself not to go into relationships easily after the previous .

& really i did it . and it had been years .

until your presence , im affected .

Your concerns & care were not forgotten .

especially on Christmas Day , when im terribly ill .

i really dont know how to appreciate people around me .

&especially you . the last time .

so can i appreciate You this time round ?