damn tired today . woke up early just because of the accounting CA . and as usual , the test was being delayed bcoz of the late comers and the those irritating teachers . the test was quite alright . although i dun get to finish the last part . but well , hoped my name wont appear on the retest list . God , u still got to bless me one more time !! i was feeling damn sleepy the whole day . every minute & every second . my eyelids were so heavy until i fell asleep while i was watching the tv after my shower till now . and yet , im still feeling sleepy right now .
Rights , guessed im turning in now . sch starts at 9 tmr . ciao ~~

been days of no contacts with you . neither online nor sms . although i've got the urge to do so , but .. i'll try to stop myself . you were not online these days . perhaps im blocked by you [i hoped this isnt true.] or you are having fun and all that . yeps , just take great care wherever you are .

was feeling so bored these days . dun feel like doing anything . lazing around like some lazy bum . guessed im too tired of school work and other ' unnecessary ' problems . went to Ivonn bestie's place to get my dress & baby Ashley's dress amended . thanks aunty !! well , once started and never ends . this is normal for us la . small hang out session with lots of gossips and plannings for some outings until midnight !! hahas ~

yesterday - an enjoyable day with my classmates . my dearest Jesslyn . that gay ass Darren . and also Jesslyn's boy (: headed down to partyworld at town to scream our lungs out . and ok lor , as usual , im Late . haha ~ got scolded by them la . but its only 10mins !! hahas . yeps yeps , sing to forget all the unhappiness and enjoy to da fullest !! dinner @ somewhere around town . and do a lil shopping with Jesslyn & her boy while that gay ass went off for something else . both of us were hunting for shoes but so far none caught our eyes .

met Gilbert today @ town again . i really really wonder , when can this freako be punctual ? guessed wat ? i waited for him nearly 2hrs . WTF !! im damn fucking pissed off . impossible for me to wait for him like a statue at the mrt station . so therefore , i went to shop around alone . alrights , finally a pair of shoe caught my eyes & of coz i bought it . (:
he took 2 fucking hours from toa payoh to reach orchard . and he took 15 fucking mins to walk from orchard mrt station to far east plaza . i was too pissed off to continue to walk ard with him . and we headed home after dinner . & he wasted a trip there . he DESERVES it !!

Chinese New Year clothes are almost done . and all i have to do now is do some house keeping in my room . haha . darn !! accounting CA tmr . im turning in already . hope i wont fail . God Please Bless Me !!

yeps ~ im keeping myself busy not to think of you & forget all those confusions and unhappiness . whatever it is , i hoped that you are safe everywhere especially when u are driving (:

please clear my doubts ..

i've got tonnes and tonnes of doubts in you .

im always hoping to know you more everytime .

but yet , i felt that you choose to stay put .

its hard for me to carry on .

Patience ?

oh , what is Patience ?

there's no Patience in my dictionary either .

i dont know how to define it in Your terms .

but still , i'll persevere ..

because it is You ~

sometimes i really wonder , what are u thinking ? what are you doing ?

does my name come across your mind when you need someone ?

or does my name come across your mind whenever are lonely ? or whenever you are bored ?

tell you what , I Do .

im wondering how much do you know about me .

i know nothing about you seriously .

im trying but yet .. i felt that we are just an aquaintance .

you are a person that are full of question marks .

& im willing to take up the challenge .

so are you willing to move on ?

initiative seems hard for u these days .

& i have to do the job .

are you so that nothing to talk ?

i always find no topic for us .

perhaps we already chatted quite alot the last time .

or perhaps im just too chatty that you dislike ?

sometimes this really makes me feel that im a freaking annoying person .

so am i ? i hope im not .

you said you are not a good guy .

but to me , you are alright !

you said my attitude is good towards you ,

and i denied .

coz i really dont have good attitude towards a relationship .

im an idiot in relationship , im lousy at it , im just a lousy girl .

i told myself not to go into relationships easily after the previous .

& really i did it . and it had been years .

until your presence , im affected .

Your concerns & care were not forgotten .

especially on Christmas Day , when im terribly ill .

i really dont know how to appreciate people around me .

&especially you . the last time .

so can i appreciate You this time round ?

its been quite sometime since i last update .

school was as usual . revision revison and revison . CA is coming this mon !! guessed im dead .

had my Napfa test yesterday . quite fun la . but its tiring ~ 2.4km run was the most toughest section for me . but surprisingly i ran non-stop for the 1st half or rather more than half of the journey !! and im panting like a dog !! not enough stamina already la . counted the points myself , well , hope its a silver ? hahas .

gave school a missed today . im too lazy and tired to go sch . my muscles are aching !! this is the result of not exercisng regualrly . ppl , exercise more !! went to meet Julin and family at tampines mall and we head down to East Coast Seafood Centre with Emily for my aunt's birthday celebration !! hahas . had very good chat with my dear cousin Emily and of coz crappin with Sharon . Julin . Agnes . bought some New Year clothes too . haha . headed down to chinatown with Agnes to attract those Chinese New Year environment . hahas . bought New Year Clothes for my baby Ashley too !! so cute lar (:

besties are the ones who are there for me when i need someone to talk to . im feeling really complex recently . thanks to Peihui for all the encouragements and ideas (: thanks Peihui & Peishan besties . i love them all (:

yeps ~ we finally had some progression . finally we had some chats thru sms and msn . but its so surface conversations . can u talk more ? i can sense ur concern though our conversations are damn short . but can i greedy for more ? i really dunno how to continue .... i really hope u noe what im thinking & and can do something about it . but ...

so near yet so far .. i really see no hope ..

went to work an event @ sentosa on sunday with Vonn & Zul . damn fun la . fun working with the event crew . alrights , i got back my tanned skin colour finally . but not really tanned though . really had lots of fun while working . hahas . alrights , pictures shall do all the talkings (:


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okies ~ i lost 2kgs !! im so happy !! haha . measured my height & weight during pe today . and also walk along the 2.4km run route around my sch . and its starting next week . zz ` and anyway , i got Full Marks for my pe theory test . haha ~ went to tampines mall with Zul , and off i went to my mum's shop to do smth & daddy drove me home (:

alrights ~ i really hate this kind of feeling . why is this kind of feeling whining back to me ?! been nearly 3 years since i last had someone . even my bestie said 'Finally' . and i told myself not to get into relationships easily . but now ... im affected ~

i missed the chance when .. u wanted to chat with me but i nv reply , u sms me and im just only entertaining , u asked me out for dinner and i rejected , u wanna accompany me when im terribly sick ,and i said it's okie , u wanna talk to me but im either in a hurry/on da phone /with my earpiece on .

& now i've regretted everything ..

suddenly , there are TONNES of school work to do . things like case study , projects , exams and stuffs . driving us insane . stayed back in sch today for the case study thingy . supposed to meet up with my classmates for lunch today and guessed wat , i cancelled it . SORRY LA GAY ASS . met up with Clarence to sch and had accounting revision . CA is like jus around the corner . gotta buck up !! met Emily and Eng after that for dinner and shopped around . and home aftermath for Golden Path . haha .

went for a hair cut with Emily . Julin on monday . and then dinner at the MacDonald's and home . Emily went to perm her hair while Julin went for a hair dye .

cool enough ~ u didnt reply my msg for the whole day . u dun really talk much already and now our chats are becoming lesser and lesser . guessed im jus too talkative . but well , hope u dun find me annoying or anything . anyway nice knowing u though we've seen each other since secondary school days . thanks for ur nice approach to let me noe u more & hope we can get along well (:

2.4km for PE in da morning . great , my hamspring & calf muscles are aching right now . didnt exercise at all thru out the entire holidays . no time to exercise la . was working full shift for like everyday . alrights , NAFA test is like less than 2 weeks away only , hope my 2.4 wont pull my points down . i want a Gold !! if not a Silver , im happy enough . coz i noe that im not as fit as wat i used to be in secondary school . Yes , audit result was released yesterday . & i passed !! no retest !! thats cool isnt it ?! haha ~ hmm ~ reached home as early as 1 in the afternoon . and the weather was super hot with the super scorching sun . had a very long cool bathe . and had my lunch while watching my FAV show . 超級星光大道 . 星光帮 !! their vocals are so powerful la . and the looks . woo ~ hahas . 许仁杰 is the BEST !! :D
met Julin @ amk hub for dinner at Pepper Lunch . shopped around and we headed home (:

was with Madeline & Darren on monday after school to hunt for ice-cream & pastry cafe for dinner . sounds abit crazy & i noe . haha . went to 2 places . Ice-Cream Gallery and the Tom's Palate's Ice -Cream . with Darren's treat !! thanks man . ur are the best gay ass i ever met . haha . tried lots different types of waffles and ice cream . all tastes gd la . but i noe this cant carry on . if not i'll become damn bloody fat which all girls hate it !!

met Gilbert after school coz he waited for me in my sch to tampines mall to collect my mum's concert tickets and do some catch ups with him . treated him coffee bean as he always treat me those expensive food . haha . hmm ~ had a so called reunion dinner with my besties Ivonn . Peishan yesterday @ bugis . a well served steamboat with nice environment and nice food la !! cool enough , we managed to finish all the food we ordered . its quite unbelievable . but believe it !! hahas . chatting , jokes , imagining our future , talk abt our times that we used spent together everyday , all the bad , good and stupid deeds we'd done during the days . laughing non stop . had a very long dinner . and as usual , time flew . aft that , went to our favourite spot for dessert nearby . and indeed , time really flies . and its time for us to part and go home (:

糖不甩

finally its thursday and im off from sch !! met Valerie to ikea to buy our present ingredients . so stupid of us that we actually imagine how our home will look like in future bcoz of the nice furnitures displayed and the showroom . bought our stuffs and we went to the cafe to have their popular Swedish Meatballs . well , its indeeed nice la . hahas . proceed back to my house and start our work . our DIY present for Anna & Darren . met the shorty poTATo chip @ compass point to buy birthday cake and bus-ed down to punggol to meet Cute . it was meant to be a surpirse for Anna & Darren . went up to their place without them knowing and we sort of did it . they were surprised . and had our food there watched tv . chats . craps and home . Nice to see Cute & poTATp chip again (: HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNA & DARREN .

Swedish Meatballs (:

school started for like already 2 days & i really still dun feel like going .
coz its damn bored over there . and the class is so noisy on 1st day of school . full of annoying musics coming out from a particular person's handphone while others & i were doing our accounting project . and the irritating voice out from this person was so damn fucking loud and irritating . ya thats the word IRRITATIN' & ANNOYING . no other words can describe .

went to hav my very 1st meal @ 3+ in the afternoon with my classmates @ cafe2 in the middle of the class . coz im damn hungry & so are they . hahas ~ hmm .. my form lecturer is leaving . sad to say fri will be his last day . quite a fun tcher la . always like to disturb me . hahas . well ~ hope u'll have a betta environment & all the best to u after u left us to the private sector . Thanks for ur teaching although its not really gd , but it helps alot la . hahas . All the best Mr Peter Quah (:

im really glad that i actually hav Zul , such a gd fren here in sch . dun mind telling me all his problems and personal problems and all . helping me in my work and all the stuffs . Thanks !!
well , now its my turn to do my part . but u noe im not very good at words . hope my words today to u will be some kind of healing advices (:

tampines mall after sch today with Darren to accompany him to try his stupid shoes . LOLS .
short nap after shower & tv until now . alrights . gonna turn in soon . if not im gonna oversleep and be late tmr & that shorty Clarence will kill me . oh shut up !!

well ~ had been having great times these days .
times with cousins . friends & besties were very enjoyable :D

met up with Julin and her boyfren for dinner @ bedok 85 and supper at east coast another day . seafood and stuffs . are my FAV . but im god damn full . and tangyuan for dessert . hahas . had a super nice hongkong noodle @ east coast for supper with them . craps and all . hahas !! Thanks to Julin and boyfren for everything . i promised i'll treat u guys one day. NO DOUBT , FOR SURE !! (:

Partyworld @ town with my bestie girls . Ivonn & Peishan . thats our all time FAV . SING !! fun time indeed . before that , did some shoppings around town and had our dinner @ heeren . had fun until no photos were taken . coz once we start something , we will forget abt taking pictures . hahas . BESTIES 4 LIFE !!

alrights !! went to Kbox for K lunch @ amk with my workmates and of coz Anna and Darren . hahas . and all of us finally got our pay !!! haha . right ~ im gonna save and spend it wisely this time round . trust me . sing sing sing ~ sing our lungs out !! jokes craps and all . and gifts exchange . i love all the pressie u gals gave !!! thanks (:
headed down to town with them without Anna and Darren . shopping , eat and all . went to lotsa places . Orchard . City hall . Bugis . great great time spending with them . hahas . went down to find Lafon girls . yeps . lil chats and finally we settled down @ starbucks . home aftermath .

& bloody school is starting like TMR . and im SO DAMN fucking not looking forward to it . zZ `

HAPPY 2008 PEOPLE !!

07 ' had finally past . and 08' is here !! and im older by a year . infact everyone is already 1 year older . Time really flies ~ with a blink of an eye , im turning 20 this year already . youth period is over and slowly dissolvin' . no longer carefree life as what it was used to be in the past .

happy moments always passes very fast which is a very sad thing .

hopefully 20th will be a wake up call for me . reminding me that its time for me to be serious @ work and everything . student life is ending very very soon . stepping out to the society is obviously my next thing .

07 ' wasn't a good year for me . everything was not going really smooth . non-stop obstacles . and people whom i really treat them as frens or more than frens could do , i finally saw your true colours . thanks for not contacting me anymore and thanks for leaving my life . BIG THANK YOU . this made me realised and learned how to see people clearly . letting me noe that there are actually such horrible people in this world . knowing u guys more was my biggest mistake made in 07' . after u guys had left , my life was so damn great or getting even better .

New Year , New Day , New Start , New Resolutions .

2008 !! IT'LL BE A GOOD YEAR FOR US !! especially to my bestie girlys . Ivonn . Pei Shan .

and of coz to everyone out there who are always with me . Family & Precious Cousins .

taken on the last day of 07'

New Year's Eve - met up with my 2 girls . went down to town . surprisingly there were not many ppl there . had our fav crepes and headed down to clarke quay to watch the fabulous fireworks from the esplanade . Clubs and pubs were full house with all the parties and all . settled down @ the coffee bean . hang out session starts and never end with them . walked down to the riverside and continue our hang out session till dawn . strolled down to bugis for breakfast @ the macdonald's with our lerthargic faces . and we bus-ed home aftermath @ 7 early in the
morning . Great time spending my last day of 07 and the first day of 08 with them (: